The joy of loving the babies

I really don't know if I've ever experienced any joy like that of loving these pups and being one with them and their Mother. I really don't think this universe has anything higher to offer me. For me this is it.

The rest will always pale in comparison. Touching you all, feeding you all, seeing you with these eyes, seeing your play and your little puppy things, hearing your sounds, and letting you bite my fingers.

One day all this will go away. You will grow up. You will go your way and I mine. But never again will i see anything, or touch anything which will give me as much joy as you all.

As long as i am in this body, i can always look at my fingers and remember that you chewed them.

Let me be honest now. When i look at you all and feed you all, i feed you as though it is God i feed, God I look at. For me it is God in your eyes. It is a blessing that you took these beloved forms for me to feed and be with and love. In all forms you verily are, Lord. When i see you in a form, you will be there. You will look out at me, Lord. Wherever I look for you, you will be there. Always.

Why are there some forms I love, and some i don't, and some i detest. Why this discrimination ? Why can't i see you in all forms and love all the way i love these ones.

Whatever, this has been the greatest experience of my life. I have loved before, like my beloved Sheru, who too was my child no less. But in those days, i was struggling against existence, separate from all. Today, there is such an intense love for existence. I see all this as Mother. It is inside this love for all existence as Mother, that i have fallen in love so desperately with these little babies and their mother. I totally forget myself with them. It is like we are all one soul. And there is a wish that we souls never part, that we become one soon.