Thursday, May 19, 2011

No individual self

There is no individual self which functions through the mind and body. The "I" that imagines it is doing this or that is a mental fiction.

The principal misperception is the idea that the Self is limited to the body and the mind. As soon as one ceases to imagine that one is an individual person, inhabiting a particular body, the whole superstructure of wrong ideas collapses and is replaced by a conscious and permanent awareness of the real Self.

From: Be as you are - Pages 18 and 43.

May 19, 2011 - Mother Allagamal's passing away.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Raja growing

Raja is growing fine. He is now larger than his mother.
Those 3 dogs that were biting him have vanished, so he is able to run around freely. However, it is very hot now, he usually lies around in puddles and is muddy and dirty.

But he is still docile and loving. I doubt he will ever be an aggressive dog. Thank you Lord for your kindness and protection.

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Om Namah Shivaya

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ap98M5T_XQU

Beautiful rendition of Om Namah Sivaya by Omkara. Just love it.

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Mother and child

The MOther is careful. She carefully checks under the cars and other spots where the big dogs lie around. Little Raja does not have these skills, it seems. He is now spending all his time under some parked car, afraid of coming out lest he get bitten.

Thus, to feed him I have to push the bowl under the car. No longer can he trail the garbage man to get some bones or extra food. His back and tail are badly bitten.


O dear ones, if I could, i would hold both of you tightly all the time, as long as there was life in this body, I would hold onto you both. What else is there in this world that makes sense. You are all I have. I would hug you both and hold you till this body fell away. I am too weak and stupid to protect you. I can barely manage myself. Somehow the Lord wishes not to guide me in serving you, in protecting you. He wishes me to suffer your pain.
May our souls be one, always, may we 3 find our way back to our Bhagavan's Holy Feet. Don't feel I have abandoned you, and only come to feed you. I, too, am imprisoned in a strange human world, inside walls. But I will always love you both.

Please heal little one, and become strong and fearless, please learn somehow to defend yourself. It is tragic, how since birth your life has been hellish, one problem after another. O Mother, O Father, heal and protect little Raja.

Father, where are you ?

Father,

I am waiting for you. One day you will lift me out of here. One day you will show up. I am tired, each moment in this body, it is totally and completely unbearable. This world is so empty and meaningless. How to live without You ?

How can you just leave us here to dry out, in this wasteland. Will you show up one day? I hope there will be an end to all perception for me. Till then, when will you destroy this mind, this notion of being separate, this stupid "I" ? How long will you keep me drying out ?