Thank You, beloved ones for giving me the best

I don't even know how to put this any longer. You have consumed me so
completely. I live within you. My life lies within you. Do you even
know how much I love you, my child ?

Yes, you do. I know it is God who has taken your form to love me, to
show me what it is to love with a complete heart. It is God who is
here to open me up to the Universe through love. It is God.

How kind of You to come for me. How kind of You to heed my call. You
have done so much for me. And what have I done in return, nothing.
When I leave this body, I wish to return to You forever. And may all
beings return to You, too. Wherever I have to go, may I never forget
you, and what you have done for me. May I always serve You, kind
Father. May I never falter, may I never differentiate between your
children. May I never see bad or wrong in your children. May I see
only You and your love in all beings everywhere and serve them with
love and devotion. All living beings deserve that.

O Buddha, O Ramana, O Mother, how blessed I am to live in your lap.

Mother has delivered

I just went to feed her. After a lot of time she came out. A guard nearby told me that she has delivered. He had heard them crying when she was going in earlier. He told me "Can't you see her stomach has shrunk".
Anyway, so it did happen last night or today morning.  November 6th or 7th, 2011. Another litter.

No way i can see them since they are far inside the gutter. They may only be able to show their faces in a week or so when their eyes open and they are able to move. But that does mean if any of them die in their, no one will be able to move it away, it will rot inside with the others nearby. Anyway, she did have a little milk just now, so i am relieved. Raja ate nothing today. Was not interested.

I love you so much

I know this is beyond ridiculous, but this is how it is.
This was once a blog about my spiritual search. It's now become a blog about my love for Raja and his mother. She's in labour in the neighbouring lane, deep inside a ditch. He's snoozing on a sand dune outside my flat across the road. I look at him and am filled deeply with love, my whole being wells up into my heart.
All i can say dear one, is that i love you more than anything in the world. You are my very life. I love nothing as much as you. Suddenly you got up and began scratching yourself. Such innocence. Such pure unpolluted innocence.
Touching you on the head. on your neck is the most blissful experience I can think of. Never will I know anything like this ever again. I can only repeatedly keep thanking this universe for making me and you exactly as we are, so i could love you.

My life is complete.

Mother in a family way

You have been so kind, Universe. Nothing could be greater than what you have given me. Raja and his mother, our love for one another. Even now he sits outside my window, across the road taking a snooze on the sand dune.

But what is happening is that Raja's mother seems to be close to delivering. She's found herself a spot across 530. In the gutter, deep inside the covered area. I can't even see how far in she goes. I guess I will not even know when she has her litter. Till they start walking around. And once they start walking around there is the danger of being run over. However, we shall see what you have in store.

Recently one of the labourers across the road hit Raja with a brick. It hit him in the ear and his ear was injured. For many days he did not let anyone touch it or check. He would howl in pain. Thankfully, the ear is much better now. The cut is still there but almost healed.

I guess life will always be tough for Raja. Even today the other dogs nearby bite him. He has fresh bite marks everyday. He is loving and docile, approaches playfully and gets bitten. He never gives up. Anyway, now my thoughts are about the little ones who are about to enter this world. The dear little ones. How much i will love them. As long as they live.

This life has been totally worth it. There is nothing more i can ask for. The only wish left is to serve those in pain, those who do not know You, to serve all your children selflessly. I wonder whether i will ever have that privilege. Or will i continue to live selfishly.