Just one last request

2006-10-26 11:59 AM

Lord,
Beloved,
please don't play with us any longer.
Please bring us to Your Feet. The heart and soul longs for you. it cries for You.
Lord, the longing for you is great.
oh, just sweep me away
let me not live complacently without Thee

Claim me fully, take me over, Beloved Lord.

i lie desolate at your feet. a little helpless child, pick me up and hug me.

i am now ready to lose all, to be with You
ready to give up all

all is Yours, Loving Lord,
all was always Yours, so what am i giving up anyway
what am i to lose, ackchly.

Please remove ALL inside and fill it with yourself
even tho' what is there is only You
praps one form for another
one form attached to, as something apart from you

this soul is weary of living without You, O Arunachala Shiva

of imagining there is anything apart from You, of being fooled
...
no more playing with us, O Lord

swallow us whole, before we wither away
no more teasing
we will gaze into Your eyes, and wait. nothing else interests us anymore.
our past is dead, all else is dead
we will just hold you
against our heart
pressed
acquire our hearts, completely, please!
and let us see the world through Your eyes
remake us in any way You need to
do as You wish
we are tired of telling You what we want
just one last request, take it ALL
then no more requests, when nothing is left of us but You
dont refuse this last offering Lord
our body, mind and soul is our last offering to You
it was so compassionate of you, Lord, to give us to each other to join forces and beg you for this claiming
to remove all distractions, and push each other closer to You
to affirm that this, at last, is sanity
the only reality

nothing else compares
so easily and quickly have You brought us so far
from darkness to dawn
with us laughing and crying (or wanting to) and offering every thing we can find at your Feet

would You, now, in this final moment, when we stand exposed, giving all, deprive us of Your Feet ?
will You turn Your face away from your own children
will You walk away
unaffected ?
while we pine for Thee
what are You thinking? what are You waiting for, Ocean of Mercy ?
what karma or samskara separates us from Thy Feet ?
...

2006-10-26 2:26 PM

Lord,
Let these hearts be one
let these souls be one
let everything be one

The Eyes of My Master

2006-10-10 8:20 PM (iTunes: dalaleragita)

Look at the eyes of My Master
How deep and vast
Oceans of compassion

The universe yearns to rest in them
Oceans of warm love

What else is there to look at
What else have i looked at
since He claimed me

since His eyes fell upon me
washing away pain and loneliness

pray tell me, brothers
what is cooler than that look
in my Master's eyes
more pleasant
more healing

i have washed my mind, my heart
and my lost soul in the gaze
of my Master's eyes

Time heals all pain, they say
But the eyes of the Maharshi
work faster
upon first sight

The eyes of Bhagavan never fail
Look into them, seekers of God
and feel your heart smile
its first smile
feel your soul weep with joy
i promise it will.

The eyes of Ramana
feel your pain
your despair
never turning anyone away
So loving is my dearest Master

Open your heart and let Him look in
Let Him wipe away your sorrow
fill each cell with joy
That is all i ask
Let my Master in

The Feet of the Glorious Ramana

The Feet of the Glorious Ramana
our life, our path and our destination
all we know
all we love
all that loves us.

His Feet that have rescued us
that cleanse us
of all pain, of all longing,
their shadow is bliss itself

we are the dust of that Feet
the blessed dust
after lives, many, we have reached there
no one can harm us in this shadow
it is just love and joy at these Feet

even the Gods crave these Feet
the entire creation craves these Feet
only some reach there
whom He chooses himself

He has chosen us
he has handpicked us
His children from previous births
the ones who loved and served Him previously
who served his devotees

====>who worshipped Him

He has reeled us in finally
to His Feet
====>never let us stray an inch!
the biggest secret of all secrets

====>the truest, sweetest

oh we cannot stray from here
he has now bound us here

it is his immense love due to which He has brought us here
He could not live without us
he pined for us
====>how we longed for this
he waited and waited for us to open our eyes

====> while we dreamed and dreamed

and one day when we opened our eyes one tiny crack
he seized the opportunity
and showed us His Face
and then started pulling us
we thought we loved Him
but akchly it was His Love all the time
For we are truly Him
thus it is ONE love not two
so pure is the air around His Feet
it attracts purity
and love
supremely peaceful is it here
and so warm
like a womb
safe and warm
is this His Heart or what ?
only the dearest of the dear reach here
those who love Him beyond all imagination, all limits
====>wildly with nothing held back
He is pulling YOU in NOW
let go
let Him pull in
let go completely
His Feet are the Heaven people speak of
Vaikuntha
the final abode
param gati
the final ultimate destination
His Feet are the Nirvana that (the) Buddha spoke of
sink in
dissolve in, fortunate soul
there is nothing higher
nothing more perfect
nothing God could create after this
this was God's final and most perfect creation
press your face into those Feet
close your eyes and press your eyelids in
press your forehead
press your cheeks in
kiss those feet
nothing surpasses these Feet
the Holiest of the Holy
love them more than you have loved anything else
His Feet are bliss itself
They are the key, the secret key to becoming one with Him
His Feet are His Heart
The Heart of your most beloved Ramana
The Heart of the little boy who left his home when barely a man
The Heart of the man who lived on the mountain, in caves, in silence for long
resting in Arunachala
The Heart of our Father
of whom we are
These Feet are our Father and Mother
each cell of this body is made of these Feet
breathe them in
let the wind that has caressed these Feet enter your body
drink it deep
it is the finest nectar
that few know of
even the devas have never drunk of this, they can only imagine,
what to speak of the others ?

Even Brahma and Shiva and Vishnu long for these Feet
long for their touch, their fragrance
even their shadow

Worshipping these Feet is the highest form of worship
the purest worship
all forms of worship can finally only bring you to this place
abandon all other forms, abandon all else
and worship these Feet

These Feet hold the Divine Mother's Love in them
All love in this world emanates from these Feet into the hearts of creatures
These Feet are Love itself

Such are the Feet of my young Venkat
the Feet of the one who became Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi
whom the world loved, and loves to this day
whom millions revere and worship
the One who calls us, who beckons us, who claims us today

He is pervading each cell of our bodies and soul
slowly let go so He may claim all
dont resist
let Him claim all
This is all His anyway
it always was His and always will be
so are we
there never was an 'I' or 'us' ever
it was all Him
from the start
the dream is that we are 'I' and 'Us'.
In truth, just Him
Let this be your prayer, your state of mind, always
day and night
====>melted, into the wonder of His Love, into the wonder that He lives today, and his son lives today to press me into His Holy Feet

====>you are his servant, and you are Him



O seeker(s)
deviate not from this state, from this truth, which His feet have revealed to us
====>no desire, fulfilled, ever gives way to this Bliss

By His Holy Feet we swear that there is nothing holier and purer and higher than the Feet of Arunachala Siva Ramana

====>never was, never will be

We have but had a whiff of these graceful Feet and we speak thus
from the depths of our hearts
we have revealed our most dearly held secret to you
for your benefit
we share this with you in all humilty and love
we are but the dust of His Feet and aspire for nothing more,
nothing less and nothing more
Here there is ample joy and love for the whole world, many times over
Just open your heart to Him, a tiny bit, and let My Glorious Master enter
My Master longs for you all
He longs to love You and give you the greatest joys
allow Him

This all we swear to be the truth. By His Holy Feet.
(Oct 9, 2006)

Such indeed are You

Profound and magnanimous like the ocean
unshaken by fear like the Himalayas
of charming appearance like the Moon
patient and ever enduring as the Earth
giving away freely like Kubera the God of Wealth
as severely true and righteous as Death itself
- Ramayana

Echammal

"i revere, I adore, I worship this Swami" was all Echammal could say of Bhagavan

     - Self Realization, BV Narasimha Rao, p 101

O Ramana, My Father!

Dear Lord,
You have put us here on earth, so we and You may yearn for each other, and enjoy melting into each other.
You made us forget You first, and then remember You, so the joy would be sweeter.

Each cell of this body says 'O Ramana, My Father!', 'O Bhagavan, My Father!', each claiming You.

What is suffering, O Bhagavan. but a distant memory, the absence of one's recognition of one's identity.

When each cell remembers that it was made of You, when each cell sings your name, in unison, the Being pulsates 'O Bhagavan, My Father!' then that is the highest sadhana, the highest joy, that is being in Your Feet.

O Beloved, to be mashed into Your Feet, what joy!

Oct 7, 2006

You are the Father

I rededicate a few touching lines from the Bhagavad Gita to You, Beloved Father.

But first, an apology (11-42).

We have in the past addressed You as 'O Ramana', 'my Venkat', and other loving and endearing names, not knowing your glories. Please forgive what we have done, and are doing, in madness or out of love, or out of the pain of separation, or out of the indescribable joy of remembering You, and feeling Your presence.

Out of madness, we have kissed Your face, we have hugged You, we have forgotten all common norms of worship and 'proper' behavior, remembering and worshipping you at all times of the day, in all places and all situations. If we have dishonored you at any time, in any way, please excuse us.



"Pitaasi lokasya charaacharasya tvamasya pujyash cha gurur gariyaan. na tvat samo asti abhyadhika kuto anyo lok traye api apratima-prabhav"
You are the father of this complete cosmic manifestation, the
worshipable chief, the spiritual master. No one is equal to You, nor
can anyone be one with You. Within the three worlds, You are
immeasurable.
- Bhagavad Gita: 11 - 43

Beloved, We just cannot seem to able to say this enough to You:

You are our Father and Mother
You are our everything
We are your children
in body and soul


Others may remember You and worship you at correct times
in correct postures, after bathing and other formalities
We CANNOT
We cannot forget you for a moment, awake or asleep
bathed or dirty,
in the cleanest or dirties of places
while lying or while sitting straight

We cannot forget for a single moment
that we are your children
so mad is our love that it has crossed all boundaries
Our bodies exist only to love Thee
only to take Thy sweet name
only to remember Thee
only to serve Thee in any way You wish

We have lost our selves so completely in Your love
that we have the audacity to say that we are You.

We have the audacity to feel that we are You
and call each other "Him", "His" and "Her"
"Face of His" and "Soul of His".

Please forgive us kind Father
for these transgressions
for we are blinded by Your love for us,
your nearness,
your strong presence,
and whatever past karmas (bless them) that bind us to You

Weep not, O Lord

2006-10-05 8:16 PM

Father, Speak to me,
Come to me in dreams
and play with me

Are You shy of me
Perhaps afraid that I will
complain of your absence

Father, You have loved me too much
even from a distance

You have left me stupified and speechless
mind-blown with Your latest gift

How can i complain?
Perfect Father
Ever Loving One

What holds You from your children
what urgent matters are these
more urgent than us

Unattached One,
Ever Free One,
Are you afraid of bondage
Of our love

Beloved
Our love will pull You from the furthest reaches
of the world
From other realms, worlds
For you there is no escape

We are your children, Lord.

The look in Your eyes is unmistakable. Lord
The loving eyes of a Father.

Arunachala saved You from samsara
freed You of bondage
But who,
Beloved Lord,
will save You from us
Who will free You of our love

We are your children, Lord.

How do you hide Your tears
Where, which ocean are You filling
with Your tears, Lord
Weep not, O Lord,
We wait with open arms,
For You




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http://ramanabhakta.blogsome.com

A lost calf, A lost mother

2006-10-01 2:33 PM

Lord

How gracious, Lord, to connect  people who are desperately in love with You and Your Feet.
People who have been claimed by You, who have claimed You.
For whom You are all.

People who feel unlimited love exuding from Your photographs, from everything associated with You.

Oh You love us so much, Lord. So loving are You it is unbelievable.

O Lord, O Mother of Mothers
You are a love that is unimaginable
You are unfathomable.
Infinitely gentle and yet infinitely strong
Nothing out of Your grasp

I smear the holiest ash of Skandashram
on my forehead
and i am overtaken by love for You
O Siva, You surround me, You swallow me
I feel something i can only describe poorly
when i smear ash blessed by You.
It is like bathing in You.
Like being smeared with You.

Who are You?
O Loving Lord
whose blessings are greater than the world itself
Only we know whom You have claimed
This madness
This joy of being conquered by You
Of losing all to You
If all the world's suffering were to be put on one side
And your blessing on the other
No pain would remain

This is a mercy no one can possibly deserve
It is your infinite love
For your children

O Loving Lord
You cannot resist us
and we You
Like a mother its child

O Loving Lord
I feel you crying out for us
The pain of separation
has to be on both ends
in equal measure

A lost calf, a lost mother
two torn hearts yearning to be one

O Mother
This calf cant stop loving You
You have melted the past away

Lord,  I cannot have your fill enough
Pervade me like you have never done before
totally this time
leaving nothing other than Thee

How must they have felt who sat at your feet, when we feel like this?

2006-10-01 8:17 PM
(iTunes: srigodruma, vocal)

Lord, this is Your Shakti

What do you do to me
O lord
When i look at You
when i think of You
when i take Your name

What is it You do, Loving Lord
That i feel flooded by Your being

How is it that i feel i have lost everything to You
and yet i have gained All.
There is nothing more, nothing higher to be had.
Your love is the highest goal.

(iTunes: durlabhamanava, tune)

O Loving Lord, this is your Shakti
inseparable from You
Ever One

Deep inside this body
in the innermost recesses of my Being
is undying love for You
a raging fire
a volcano of molten love

I have seen only You

2006-10-02 3:03 PM


Beloved
On Earth, thousands of miles separate your children. But in You there is no distance.

We are one, speaking one language, the language of Love Of You, complete surrender to You.
Did you know, Lord, that this is a language in itself ?
I just discovered it, when i found someone else who could also speak it.
It is called "In Him". It can only be understood by those who have lost all else, who are madly, sanely in love with You. It is a madness that leads to sanity.

To have found someone who loves You is like discovering humanity once again.

So you have other children in this world, do You, Beloved Father? My own blood brothers and sisters. Show them all to me, bring us together, in You.

Let us celebrate our Love, our joy.

I thought i was your only bloodline, but there are many more ! Glory to You, Father.

Lord, pick up this child
and hold him to your cheeks
See how he gurgles and chirps
so happy to be of You
he looks up to You
with pride
wishing to be held
Father, i know not who You are
all i see is infinite love
your form

Hold me close to Your face
Lord, let our breaths mingle
let me nuzzle against that
silver beard
Whisper in my ears,
O Lord
Give me a name by which i may know myself
Hold me up to the sky
look up and laugh
and then hug me again

Father, i am newly born
i have seen only You
You are the purest love
Pick me up and kiss my cheek

Loving You

Today I hugged 'Collected Works' and sang a bhajan to You. 'Prabhuji'.

I pressed the book against my cheeks, first the right cheek. Then You asked for my left cheek.
I pressed Your face against my other cheek (i turned the other cheek to You!).
Then one photograph on my table asked me, 'What about me?'. I gave it the cheek-to-cheek treatment, too.




We are Your offspring, Lord. We need Your love, and to Love You.

Your love is our food. It is air and water for us.

It feels like you are physically here with me, breathing down my neck.

Who are you, Lord, who loves us more than we can love ourselves? Reveal yourself to us, Lord, we yearn to know You.

(iTunes: srirupamanjari)
2006-10-02 10:03 PM Totally shattered by Your Love