Thursday, March 15, 2012
Pups doing fine
The little ones are doing fine, completed their fourth month recently. I release them at about 7:30 AM and then put them in with their lunch at about 2:30 till 4 or so. Then i release them for the evening. But put them back from about 6:30 to 9 pm. Another hour and a half of freedom and then its back in for the night.
I'll be keeping up this routine of putting them in in the evening and night for this month. They seem quite okay, since they need their rest, too, and they get lots of freedom now. Now they stay close to their birthplace. They do not wander onto other streets like they used to do earlier when they were tied up most of the time.
I am slowly reading Practicing the Power of Now. Beautiful, and helps me keep in awareness.
Friday, March 09, 2012
Self-enquiry practice
For some months I have been unable to do enquiry. The pups were one reason of late. All my mind was on them. And then in February I found myself coming into the Now again and again, and it felt sweet. For the first time I enjoyed it and wanted to come back again and be there. Then there was that incident of someone threatening to call the police about the dogs. That put me into such anxiety, totally gripped me. I had only one option, to keep asking "who is suffering".
And this felt totally natural. Remaining in the awareness or Now or present moment. Aiding it by asking "Who is suffering" or "who is having these thoughts" and then being intensely aware or watching. To me this is how enquiry naturally is, and DG's book in chapter "Self-enquiry - Practice" says just this in the very first para. Although, he uses so many different ways of referring to awareness, that it becomes confusing for a first time reader, or someone who has not figured out what is to be held or abided in.
As always happens, that naturally falling into awareness comes for a few days and then goes away. I must not give up, must not get distracted again. This time i actually feel that this is more important than anything else i could do. there is no more the feeling that i could be doing something more interesting, or let me take a break, or how much longer does this have to go on.
Please Father, give me the strength and motivation to keep this up till liberation. Do not let me get distracted.
And this felt totally natural. Remaining in the awareness or Now or present moment. Aiding it by asking "Who is suffering" or "who is having these thoughts" and then being intensely aware or watching. To me this is how enquiry naturally is, and DG's book in chapter "Self-enquiry - Practice" says just this in the very first para. Although, he uses so many different ways of referring to awareness, that it becomes confusing for a first time reader, or someone who has not figured out what is to be held or abided in.
As always happens, that naturally falling into awareness comes for a few days and then goes away. I must not give up, must not get distracted again. This time i actually feel that this is more important than anything else i could do. there is no more the feeling that i could be doing something more interesting, or let me take a break, or how much longer does this have to go on.
Please Father, give me the strength and motivation to keep this up till liberation. Do not let me get distracted.
Freeing the little ones
yesterday was Holi. The little pups were out for quite some time during the day unattended. Sat on a little sand mound on the house opposite (375). Very little traffic yesterday. Today, I left them out at about 8 am and they are out, back on the sand mound where there's some sun.
From today, the two will be out during the day. I may still put them in with their lunch at two (bones). I will put them in at 6 pm. And they will be in all night for another couple weeks. Then about March 20th or so, they can be out round the clock.
From today, the two will be out during the day. I may still put them in with their lunch at two (bones). I will put them in at 6 pm. And they will be in all night for another couple weeks. Then about March 20th or so, they can be out round the clock.
