My love for you

Beloved little one,

If my love for you were on one side, and the whole universe on the other, my love would still outweigh the universe.

Such is my love for you both little ones. I am shattered by your loss, my whole world has collapsed, i don't know if i can ever be the same. 

I will likely spend my life wondering what happened on that night of Diwali. Which way did you run? Where did you go? Where did you reach? How did your life go?

You will remember, beloved, how I used to ask you where you were before you were born. When you were 3 months old, i used to ask you where you were four months back. Have you gone back to where you were before you took this body? Or are you walking around. Are you afraid to return since you associate this place with firecrackers.

Every Diwali i will be reminded of you, beloved. I will never forget that it was Diwali that separated us. Forever.

In all this, everything has got shaken off. The only other thing, other than think of you, is -- what is conscious of all this. Everything else is now meaningless, like a silly joke. Never, never did I love anything as much as I love you.

Searching for you, my little one ...

Where are you, beloved one ?

Today I searched R-block, Pamposh and those areas. There's a large park when going down the road from R-block towards Hansraj Gupta that leads to EOK.

Yesterday, I searched the backside nullah, end to end, and i think you might have fallen in there and climbed out of either end. I am putting more details on all this on http://my-lost-dog.blogspot.in/.

Father, Mother, why are you silent ? Where is my beloved little one ? Is she even alive ? How could this happen to her? How could you let this happen? 

Where are you, my child ?

Beloved Mother,

Where is my beloved Gabbar ? 

Are you looking after her? Do you know how much I love her, and long to see her and touch her? Is she hungry? Is she cold, is she frightened, is she hurt? Is she even alive, or did someone run her down without a thought?

Do you think, Father and Mother, that I will live this life without the two of them, without ever knowing what happened to my beloved little one? It's almost 10 days.

Will you not lead her back, Mother, or lead me to her ?

Still searching for you ...

Today I was looking in the area behind Archana Cinema to Moolchand, the nullah area. in case you had fallen into the nullah and had waded down. There is no telling where you might have come out and walked or run. Every day, you probably go further and further away. Yesterday, I checked the M-Block market and C-block area.

Today someone from EOK called up to say a dog had landed up in their area, I sent her your pics but she replied it wasn't you. Beloved one, where are you ? How are you ?

Mother Earth, why don't you answer me. Where is my beloved one? Give me some clue, bring her back, or take me to her. What point is life without my little one. How I long to see my two little ones together, playing and running. Mother, do you wish to see the love in me die out.

Where are you, beloved child?

I have no idea where are you, my little one. I have looked quite far, and will keep looking.

Please Lord, help me find my little one. All day long I keep wondering where you might be, whether you are hungry and cold (of course you are). You are lost, bewildered, frightened. How I long to hold you in my arms, and feed you bread and milk with my hands as I used to. How I long to see you running down the street with Sher both tussling and wrestling. Both of you sitting together are the most wonderful sight my eyes have ever seen.

I remember how each night you would wait outside our gate peering in. My two little monkeys looking in. I always knew I would have to part with you one day, but i expected that day to come after ten years, not just one year. If only i had known I would not have gone for Diwali. I would have stayed back. One slip and you are gone.

O Mother Universe, can you hear me... Can you help my dear child back here. Can you guide her back? Can you guide someone will recognize her to her. Someone who will bring her back. Please Mother, Earth find a way to bring my dear Gabbar back. All failing guide her to someone who will love her and be kind to her. O Mother, when we leave these bodies may we be one, may we never be separated ever again.

Still looking for black pup

Father

I am still looking for my little beloved Gabbar. Today, I looked in the R and C block parks and drove around W block too. I must check the M-Block market. I cannot believe that she is lost, I cannot believe that I may never see her again. I cannot believe that she may no longer be alive, or may be in great pain somewhere, or frightened.

Please please guide me, beloved Father.

Pic taken when she was 4 months old (now one year old). Pic 1, pic 2.

one pup missing

Dear Father

Last night was Diwali. One of the little ones, Gabbar Singh has been missing since then. She was terrified of the crackers. I've called her a lot, whistled, looked around the forest behind, and the colony. I think she's in the ditch the connects the corner house and the forest. 

Please take care of her, Father, get her back, i am really worried.

Thanks.