I will do what you want

My prayer nowadays to you is what is it you want from me in exchange of happiness for all beings, no more suffering for any living creature. Ask for anything, i will do anything, give anything for this. I would give my life, i would burn or freeze in hell for eternity if you could ensure and end to all suffering forever. i really would do anything.

i really mean this.

And there's a confession. there are still thoughts of revenge, that you should punish those that are doing wrong -- certain people i am riled with. That's just my ego that seeks revenge, i do not really mean it. Help me so i don't wish ill for these people. Whenever i see misfortune befall them, i know there must be some delight in me, even though i do not admit it even to myself. I immediately tie it in with the wrong i feel they are doing to others. i feel that misfortune is correct and deserved. I am mean, O Father, despite all your love and grace, there is still time and space in me for meanness and wishing others harm. Underneath the garb of virtuous thoughts is the same sickness of unhappiness that results in such thoughts.

I have no time for those things. After seeing your love and kindness, O Lord, where is there time for any living creature to be worrying about land, possessions, freedom, what happens to this temporary body. all this pales in front of you. I did not come here for this, O Father. Not to waste time on such thoughts. I must remain in enquiry and not abandon silence for silly worries. I did not come here to get wrapped up in the ego's petty games.