Is this awareness being observed ?

Is this awareness a phenomenon ? Attention moving from awareness to thoughts and back ?
Am I awareness, or the attention moving back and forth ?
Is something watching the awareness ?
And who, for crying out loud, is the "I" who wonders this, or who abides in awareness, or who "looks" back ?
Who will finally say: yes i am this awareness, or no, I am something else behind it?

Father, help, give a push, give direction. Most likely I will just simply stay in awareness and not look back, perhaps not really ripe for this.