May 9th - Buddh Purnima

I should not cling onto experiences of peace or silence for they could be just mental experiences, concocted to please/distract.

Just as experiences of thoughts, noise, anger, irritation are mental sensations, so must be (could be) the silence, peaceful sensations, since I am there to experience it, and say: "Aah, i am at peace", "Aah, i am having no thoughts right now".

So, "I" am still there experiencing it. it cannot be me. or closer to 'me'. How can one sensation be closer to me than another.

Only when i am not there to experience, can I be in awareness, or "me" (??).


So peace, anger, sadness is happening in 'me', it is not me, or closer to me.

How discouraging! But some would say "that's another thought". How difficult this all is!