Mother

The other day I went to feed her. I found her behind a car. And oh my God, i was wondering all these weeks when would she would have babies and whether they would survive ... but what a surprise awaited me.

I cannot tell you, O World, how I felt. Not only were there five pups but they were all healthy and chubby and about a month old already. O Lord, i cannot tell you how grateful I am. Last time, her entire litter perished in the heavy rain a day or so after being born, and i came to know only after the event.

Such a joy to see them everyday. They are like my babies to me. Do they have any idea how dear their mother is to me. When i look at her it is like looking at the Mother Goddess. The love in her is unmistakable. Is this why the universe really exists, to feel love for others ?

There is You, Bhagavan, Father on one hand. And then there is this existence, consciousness, which is Mother. Her love and protection is unmistakable. Are you both the same ?

I find myself praying to this Mother, to Existence, that i am now ready to serve Her -- whatever it is You all want. Now there's nothing I want or need. Just your wish or will.

Whatever power created animals, and little ones, most especially puppies, I have complete faith in that power. I cannot suspect You, or mistrust you. I can only entrust my life to You. You who created love, who created mothers, and children, what can be greater than You. I cannot bear to struggle against You any longer.

I have been afraid all along to let go, to surrender control to you. I have been afraid if i let go of the false self, then people around me will force me to eat meat or to drink, and there will be no one to protect me. Or I might hurt or harm others through action or even words. Or i might get addicted to something. Or lose control. But who is it who put me on the path of truth, or non-violence, or vegetarianism anyway. Not the silly mind. It has to be something from You or the Self trickling through the impostor.

How can i trust the clever mind more than You. How silly of me. Whatever way it is you wish to run this life, You may. My love and trust in You is too much. I am ready to take on whatever pain or hardship that life may put my way, for You, for Your children. It matters not for me. Your children are most important.

I cannot suffer no matter what comes my way any longer. I know this. And to serve You and Your children would be the utmost honor.