June 22

Today is the anniversary of one of those special days, when you bombarded me -- when You turned my face towards yourself telling me to always keep thinking of You and being totally dependent on You.

I should stop marking these days, really.


For the last couple of days, awareness has been pulling me from within. I have been sitting silently in awareness. It is strange, it feels like 2 distinct people here. For some days, you pull me into bhakti, and i feel that any other path is totally absurd. And then you pull me from within into silence, and I wonder who the other "me" was who was weeping looking at your photo.

But I shall not force either path, or resist. I shall let both happen as they wish to. Both are nice and very meaningful when they happen.

You yourself have asked us to find You within. I am happy, sweet Lord.