Dropping the seeker

2008-01-07 19:07

Dropping the seeker

The silent self-awareness reveals the difference between the personality, and the awareness or whatever.

The personality uses "me" to live its life, its likes, dislikes, dreams, aspirations, and emotions. It wants and then enjoys when the want is fulfilled. "I" don't enjoy, it does. I am just used, and ultimately thrown away like garbage. The real "I" is just garbage for the personality - to be used and spat away.

One of the aspects of that personality is the seeker, the so-pure and great seeker who only wants to be liberated. All he wants to do is surrender or meditate and realize the Self.
Such a devious game, for the seeker only thinks of self-enquiry or being in silence. It actually never allows self-enquiry to happen. At that point, it will come up with more important things to do, stuff to read, etc.

It wants to do, but never really does.

It likes to *think of* surrendering thoughts, being in no-mind.

Thus, the seeker has to be dropped. The seeker is not us, but the personality pretending. The real I has no needs.

Dropping the seeker, or stopping seeking does not imply going back to one's earlier life, the life of the mind/personality.

Sitting in silence, self-awareness, is dropping the seeker. Just being, is dropping the search.
No more going places, visiting places, doing "spiritual" things, being a "spiritual" person, meditating on this or that, chanting mantras.

Just being.
Being what you are.