Now there is a sweetness and intimacy to the awareness (or I-am, or present moment).
It (I actually!) was always there, I reached it (myself) a million times but never recognized it.
Mental note: I have to stop calling it "it". It's me.
The Eternal Light
Believe nothing because a wise man said it;
Believe nothing because it is generally held;
Believe nothing because it is written;
Believe nothing because it is said to be divine;
Believe nothing because somebody else believes it;
Believe only what you yourself judge to be true
- Gautam Buddha