Present Moment

2010-03-20 10:03

I am pushed repeatedly into awareness or presence, like there is no alternative now, nowhere else to run, no other escapes or shortcuts. This is where anything is to be found, if anything. Even You my Father, if to be found anywhere will only be found in this moment.

And at the same time, for the last few months, is this bursting in the heart -- this explosion of love and that is just increasing. It frightens me at times, as to where it might lead. Is it something selfish, disguised as something selfless, or is it your will.

So my days are alternating between being in the present, and tears of love, and being completely overwhelmed and shaken by this thing.