I have found Your scent

For years I wandered lost
a dog without his master
but now i have caught Thy scent
O Arunachala !!
You have revealed it to me !

I shall now track you down surely
beloved Master
that i promise.

And if You do not devour me,
then i shall devour Thee,
that too i promise, O Beloved Master!

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Your scent beloved Master is silence, the silence between thoughts, the refusal of consorting with the mind.
Associating with the mind is sleeping with the enemy. One can either be Yours or the mind's. In this, there is no double-crossing.

Forgive me, Beloved Father for I have sinned - I have betrayed Thee for lifetimes. The ultimate betrayal -- selling myself to the mind for cheap pleasures.

But i promise You, that ever since I saw Your face, I have tried to mend my ways. Slowly surely, my days with the mind are coming to an end. I know You will forgive me and welcome me back into Your heart.

Attachment to thought, to a personality, was worse than lust.
I feel dirty and sinful, Lord, I hid from you and slept with the devil!

There are no excuses. I can only promise you that I shall not fall back again. Hold fast unto me, Lord. The mind still mocks and challenges me.

Burn it with your glance, frighten it to death with your glare, O Shiva, your son calls for help! Yank me out !

2007-12-19 18:05