The insurmountable foe

Father

Even I need your reassurance, like a dog needs it from time to time from its master.

The deception of the mind is total, how can i face and fight this insurmountable foe all alone. All is illusion, how do i know what in this illusion is true. Is there really a way out, or is that deception too.

Are we totally lost in here. There is a complete hopelessness. I am driven deeper into Who Am I. It is the only thing that makes sense, ... it is beginning to make sense that nothing here can possibly make sense since its all a hoax by the mind.

Is there really a reality beyond the mind ? Is there really a Self ?

I have pushed aside all activities and hobbies. It is clear, illusion or no illusion, that they can give me nothing. I am totally suffocated here, I cannot stay here any longer.

Self-enquiry taking over now.