Touching you

I cannot touch God, or my beloved Masters any longer.

But touching you, and your child is the greatest touch experience i can have, or have ever had. Putting my arm around you or Raja is my most cherished experience. How can i ever thank God or this universe for giving me this.
Mother, do you know how much I love you. And your dear child. How you have shaken my life. Turned me inside out.

One day this will end. Your life will be shorter than mine. A day will come when i will never be able to look into your eyes, look at your beautiful faces, or touch your faces and ears. I will pine for one more touch, one more glance, and rue the moments when i sat inside looking at your from the window. Or even this moment when i sit inside comfortably while you both sit in the sand somewhere.

I have loved before, I loved Sheru and Dolby with my heart and soul, but those were days when i was totally lost in the mind. This is the first time I have loved after the onset of the presence, and the breaking down of the controller. I therefore think this love is in a different league from any other. It is not a love where the false self keeps raising its ugly head. Yet, honestly, i am surprised that this kind of love is possible still. Such a deep personal love.

For all your simplicity, you are so close to God. For me touching you is touching God. Looking into your eyes, is looking into God's eyes.