2009-02-14 20:28
I now find that what others call joy, or happiness, or life, is intolerable to me, for even a moment. I cannot deceive myself any longer, i cannot delay any longer. This is torment.
Enquiry, or "who am i" is happening all the time, it is becoming more and more of a habit.
Lord, Beloved Father, help me, this is your grace, let it continue till we are united. This absolutely has to be the last year.