July 16, 2006
Utterly Destroyed and Blissful
No soul can endure, can survive, under the loving "glare" of the satguru. Once it has reached the satguru, it is the end of its life-cycle.
Once the soul realizes that she was always in the shade of the Guru's Holy Feet, that the Satguru was always holding her hand, always carrying her with complete tenderness and affection, then there is no other recourse for the weary soul, but to let go completely. All struggle ends.
Lord, i have done all i had to do, i have used this and millions of bodies, i have done all the things that living beings do, now there is really and honestly no need to exist in the body any longer. Life in this body is a struggle. I cannot struggle any longer.
Lord, i have totally crumbled under the weight of Your love, there is nothing left. Oh carry me away. there is nothing left.
All this frame can do is to sing your praise, to remember You, don't ask for more. You are too beloved to this weary soul, for her to do anything else.Whoever you truly are, Ramana, be You Siva, or Vishnu or Krishna or paramatman, i deeply deeply love you. You have loved me too much for me to care. i am utterly destroyed, and blissful.
I used to cry to You out of pain, of separation, but since June 22, i have if ever cried, i have cried to you out of love and uncontainable joy.
The Guru is Love and Joy uncontainable.
