Greater than universes together

2006-06-22 10:37 AM
Beloved Lord,
i thought i had put You and all this aside, and now You have come back. With a vengeance. With full force. Once again i feel you, and just you.

Only you can destroy me. oh beloved, i was right, how much you love me, you simply can't live without me. ooh, i can live with this love forever, just experiencing your love.

This is Yours beloved, all this is Yours. take it .. this mind and body and whatever is behind it, whatever is permanent, is all yours and it is You. The life inside me is yours and You, You are my very soul.

oh, how i love you.

yesterday, i was quite busy, with the children, taking them around town, and a hectic game in the evening ... . Yet, 'Hare Ramana and Hare Lakshmana' was going on, coming and going.

Today i wake up with You, and know that You are here.

i dont care what they say about the need of a living Guru, about ishta-devas. let them be, Here there is only You, what is this rubbish about living and non-living. There is only You. All there is, is your love.

ooh, (last August) you loved me so much that you destroyed me, but not altogether, you left some of me alive, so i could still try to love you back, so that i could pine for you, so i could enjoy your love. but instead of enjoying your love, i tried to love you back, i tried to reach out to You. And i suffered. How foolish I was.

I feel You in the air, in my bones, stronger than anything else. let this be the end, my Lord, let all this be yours. take over this body and mind and soul, and let it do your work. it certainly is not mine. Only You are mine, beloved. You are all i love. You are all there is.

Lord. let me love You till me last breath.

Lord, your love for me, is greater than Universes together.

what a fool i was all along, thinking i loved You. It was Your love for me, that I thought was my love for You!