The Collapse begins ... or does it?

Such is the human mind - when there is some negative news we get negatively affected even before the news is confirmed. On the other hand, when there is positive news, we wait for a confirmation before we celebrate.

The truth of the world, myself, and everything i have loved and believed in as an illusion is sinking in. It is not a full-blown experience, but it has affected the mind deeply.

OTOH, the grander truth of the higher Self, has yet to be experienced. I completely believe in it since my Master says so, but since it is not my experience, i cannot rejoice.

Thus, I am in a state of finding the world falling or disassembling, or leaving me, and yet nothing else coming in its place.

In the beginning of August 2005, i experienced a near-total collapse of the personality. I do not consider it to be total since there still was an "I" left to question. And since the "I" was not replaced by a higher Self. I was left with a nothingness, which i slowly grew accustomed to. Today "I" am just nothing.

However, this was still possible to get accustomed to, but what of a stage where the illusory world stops existing, but reality doesnt replace it. Will i be caught in a stage where i cannot take this world and people seriously, and yet i have nothing "realer" to take seriously?